i can't pick up the pieces

i somehow feel as if the whole of my life so far has been a story, and it has ended. my future right now is empty and unknown, i think more so than ever previously. i feel right now as if i’m saying goodbye to the world. i fear there are many of you i will never see again in this life, not only from my leaving or changing, but also from yours. the last few months have been a season of great changes for many of us. but even more, i fear there are those i will never see again, in this life or the next. and i care so much for some, and wonder if there were ever anything i could have said or done differently that would have changed that, that would have given a hope.

“it’s only forever if we die tonight”


(sorry if this sounded depressing; i didn’t intend it that way, just saying what i was thinking...)