sigh

well, i think i am going to change my template a little soon... have re-created my homepage, which you can see here. Now my blog clashes- too colorful i think. i need to get ahold of goforth, but there is nowhere on his pg to contact him (at least as far as i can find). now i blog. the lack of things to say seems to consume a lot of my one-sided conversations on here, but again, i have little of interest. i have withdrawn from one of my lovely classes at lander... no more data structures! i do wish that all could be blogged, but in a tiny place like greenwood, and in a group of people that are all of greenwood, there is so much that cannot be said. why is it that there are always topics of which everyone knows, but of which it is socially unacceptable to speak? what is that which causes embarassment? animals don't experience this emotion. i think it has something to do with the fall, which would explain shame, but embarassment often stems from the silly. who is it that decides what is acceptable within society, or what is ok for people to speak and do? we expect everyone to adhere to unspoken social standards, which we never actually teach anyone. how do we expect them to continue without being changed? and if the change doesn't matter, why do we hold these standards anyway? lots of questions, but they aren't questions for which i am seeking answers, just points to ponder...